Saturday, November 22, 2008

Lately I...

* Haven't been in the blogging mood. Stuff is going on in my life and my peeps are telling me I should post about "it" but I'm not. Some things are too personal but it probably would make for a good post, though bits of my personal leak into all of my posts. I've also been at a loss for topics but that's probably because my mind is blocked by all that's going on.


* Haven't been getting much rest. OH but last night! Last night I collapsed around 10:30 p.m. I knew I would wake up in the middle of the night because I'm not used to sleeping for long periods of time and sure enough I woke up at 1 am. Immediately I wanted to get on the computer, listen to some Sade or Anita Baker, finish my church work, type out a couple of letters (yes I still type/write letters to my peoples), or get up and read but I willed myself to go back to sleep and eventually I fell off.
I woke again at 2:30 am. This time I was too hot. My apartment is an inferno during the winter months. I'm not complaining because it's freezing outside. I did get out of the bed to open the window.
I woke again at 4:30 am. This time to close the window because the heat went down and I was suddenly freezing.
I fully woke up at 6:30 am, feeling good. I'm so glad I had a full night of resting. It's been months since I've been able to.


* Have begun to bore everyone including myself. I used to think that I was one of the most exciting people but I've been in a work, home, church, clean-up Grandma's place and then repeat, RUT. I'm bored and the thought of me spending a Friday or Saturday night alone makes me wanna run out for a bottle of the brown juice to drown my sorrows. But then I'll probably get weepy and then call everyone I didn't want to call in the first place, tell them all how I love them, we should get together and then I'll pass out and forget the phone calls or that I told them we were hooking up. I haven't even been reading much lately. It's crazy! Anyone who knows me knows that I am always reading something. So I'm trying to find some ways to make my life exciting again. Any suggestions?

11 comments:

Robyn said...

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ChezNiki said...

I cant help. Im on the Brown Juice therapy program my d*mn self!

The True Urban Queen aka Sharon said...

I don't know what to tell you to do to get out of the bored, blue funk stage. Sorry :(

Have you started your card business yet? I could be your first customer.

That could be it. Doing shows. Showing off your work that is exciting.

Ticia said...

Girl - I am trying too -

I am going to start going to different classes - I see a lot of them being offered in the hip newspapers here in Chicago -

Time for me to get out - and live!

Brothers Blog said...

yeah I think we all get in these ruts at times. hope u get out of it pretty soon. but I would try to avoid the brown juice if it will make u react like that. no type of things being offered through the church to get out and about?

Lovebabz said...

Sister,
I know something about funks, feeling blue...malaise.

You gotta will yourself into a different mindset. You have to change your mind right now.

Stop listening to Anita Baker...for now *smile*. Listen to Mary Mary they have a great inspirational song out.

You have to become the very thing you desire!

I have faith in you. You are an amazingly talented woman. Do not lose sight of your gifts.

Monique said...

Honey, you know we all have our good days and our bad. Just deal with it and know that things always get better.

MsKnowitAll said...

Thank you all for the encouragement and suggestions.

MsKnowitAll said...

Lovebabz... Thank you Sis. I am listening to a little Ricky Dillard right now.

P_LOCA said...

girl about last month I was out of it myself..someone I truly loved and cared about someone..and came to find out I was the only one in the relationship..I was so stressed..couldn't sleep..keep waking up in the middle of the night, thinking about this person and asking myself why. Now god has given me the strength and courage to move on with my life and focus on myself....I've been listening to Jill Scott-really helped....so when you don't find yourself focusing on the stuff that were important to you just sit down and think of how it made you happy and how you enjoyed doing it..it'll be alright!

MsKnowitAll said...

P_Loca... Girl I've been in those types of relationships. Thanks for the encouragement.