Wednesday, June 3, 2009

The Evil In Me

This is a random...

I can't really call it evil or evilness. It's more like impatience, snappiness... essentially... burn out. I need time off from work, time off from church and this is not the right time...

So... I press. I woosah. And unfortunately I've also been showing my evil side.

Just because I'm sportin' a little 'fro does not mean that I look like Jill Scott. Jilly is absolutely beautiful but no I do not see the resemblance. Someone has dubbed me the library Angie Stone. HUH?!?! Now when I had longer hair, I was told I looked like Star Jones (plump Star, before the weight loss). Nah peeps, I look like me and I've yet to see a celebrity that I resemble.

Apologies for the evil leakage...

And no I'm not locking my hair! I'm going to let my afro grow and surround my head like a halo! I want it to be big, thick and unruly. I want to look like a throw back from the 70s. I want to look like I have a 12 inch vinyl record in the back of my head. And if someone touches my hair one more time to cop a feel because it looks hard... Guess what?! It is! I have coarse hair and it's splendid. No I'm not breaking down and perming it. You can't believe I cut my hair off? What made me do it? I did it because I wanted to. Get over it. It's only hair!!!!

Okay... I apologize again...

The evil in me does not like Femi Kuti, Nina Simone and Joshua Redman... Joshua Redman's Jazz Crimes is playing as I type... I usually listen to silence as type...

Oh and the evil in me does not like Sade... "You give me, you're giving me the sweetest taboo"...

And the evil in me loves it when I don't go to bed until the wee hours of the morning... so I wake up evil and the cycle repeats...

Good people, I'm off to Lala Land as Sade's By Your Side plays...






6 comments:

Kay C, The Quiet Storm said...

Not sure if I should laugh at this but it cracked me up. Get used to it, I've been natural for 13+ years and people (especially men) always ask to touch my hair. The very few I have let touch it (I had to agree in order to run my fingers through some very gorgeous locks on a very beautiful man) they are surprised that it's so soft.

Continue to do you sister, and let the ‘fro grow as big as you like! BTW...some evil moments are warranted and necessary in life. Just try not to dwell in them ;)

MsKnowitAll said...

Kay C... so far it's far more women touching my hair. you know - the church ladies. they don't even bother asking! the men do. and the men who have touched are very close to me.

Thank you for the encouragement! I usually blunt in my attitude and in my speech but not evil. I pray for this moment to pass... quickly.

Mizrepresent said...

I feel you...we all have these days, these moments, but just hold on...it will pass, surely. You have a beautiful heart and a wonderful disposition, just rely on this to get you through! Hugz!

The True Urban Queen aka Sharon said...

You would think that people would think that today with people wearing their own style of dressing and such, hair won't be such a big issue.

From natural to long down to the tail bone weaves I have seen and could careless. It is a matter of personal choice.

Make sure you post pictures on FB.

And learn to ignore people and tell them: Please do not touch my hair.

Lovebabz said...

Hey mama said there be day like this...my mama said!

LOL! I too have had the hair discussions...I had dred locs for 12 years and one day I walked into the barbershop and said take them off and razor me to my scalp. I wore my hair scalp short before.

Hang in with your "evilness" although I daresay it's not evil...more like you need a respite...vacation...time out...down time away from the day-to-day stresses.

((HUGS))

clnmike said...

I didnt think it was evil till you said that side didnt like Nina Simone.......yeah that is evil.