Wednesday, November 18, 2009

False Fillers


The other day I was in the 99 cents store . The same aisle that has the stationery items (I love stationery) also has the junk food items. So I decided to purchase a bag of chips. Now I could have exercised self-control and bought nothing but I settled on a bag of crunchy cheese doodles. That is after I put back the bag of puffed cheese doodles because there are less puffy doodles in the same sized bag than in the crunchy and I gotta get the bang for my buck!

So then I started thinking about other areas in my life when I settle for the puffiness over the content... like settling for a vanilla coke when I know I need to drink water, eating a dark chocolate Hershey bar instead of biting into the apple I brought from home, buying clothes from the cheap stores when I can save my money and spend it on items that will last me longer than one season or settling for relationships that leave me lost, insecure and empty.

False Fillers... those things that fill you up for the moment but leave you wanting... False fillers make you think you've got more than you really do... making you think that the empty voids are full... false fillers will leave you always craving more, never satiated, never content. You know... a lot of the foods we eat contain fillers. They bulk up the food. However, most fillers have little to no nutritional value...

I'm gonna be honest here... this here job I'm in... it's a false filler. It is a break off from the initial position I applied for 2 years before and didn't get. It wasn't the title nor the money that I longed for. And I can count how many days I've been happy or content... so I know it's time for me to move on...

This past weekend, I had some "me" time and when I woke up on Saturday morning I felt suffocated by the things surrounding me. Books, clothes, papers... things... and I knew it was time to clear out. So along with my belongings that simply filled up my space, I decided it was time to purge my closets and my dresser drawers... how many different black sweaters can I put on at one time? And how many do I need to look beautiful or feel sexy?

And purging always makes me feel good... the act of the and result after. So now my home is open, airy and spacious... and my life...

Well I no longer indulge in alcohol... a glass of wine here or there... but I don't drown my sorrows... I eat more whole & healthier foods... I read books with content... I watch TV shows that are entertaining and they feed my mind... I buy items that are worth their value and my relationships - my friendships and my courtships - bring me pleasure and satisfaction. I no longer desire the fluff and now that I've tasted the real deal, false fillers are recognizable and avoidable...


4 comments:

Kay C, The Quiet Storm said...

Whew! you must've been reading my mind. False fillers...I've been purging my house lately, which is funny because there isn't much there. But I noticed when my house is a mess, my life is a mess as well.

Let's just say it's time to clean. After this weekend I will have time to reflect, recharge and regroup ;-)

((HUGS))

Ms. Liryc said...

I am going to have to re-read this post. Cause I think I may need to bang this into my head a couple of times..

I'll leave a real post about this as soon as I've gotten it.. may take me a couple of days, but I'll be back

clnmike said...

Good post, those false fillers serve a purpose in filling the empty void but we start relying on them too much at the expense of our over all health. But man it's hard as hell to break free once you get used to it. Im still trying to shake things off.

Don said...

I co-sign every thing written. I too know the temporary satisfaction received from false fillers, and I appreciate the fact that it allows me to move towards something that will "stick to my stomach," to kindly put it.

I think we all share moments where we feel suffocated by some things in our life and we have no choice but to purge. Like yourself, purging helps me to breathe.