Craving Pink....

I abandoned the color pink in 2009. I felt like pink was too youthful and didn't represent me as the woman I am. I leaned more toward purple, a color I simply adore. I wore and still wear a lot of purple. My home is decorated with lots of purple.

However as 2010 came in, for some reason, I craved pink. I ditched my pink last year, giving my sweaters and shirts to one young sister in my church. That didn't stop me from buying pink roses and carnations to decorate my home as the new year came in. And yet I still desired it around me. So I bought a pink tissue box for my desk at work and I bought pink fabric to adorn my home. It got to the point that I had to question myself.... What's up with me and this color? Here is a little of what I found when I did a google search....

"The color pink usually serves two purposes. It can be used to show childish innocence, or a characters child-like personality. It can also be used to show a more flirtatious personality. Pink is normally a color associated with girls and femininity.

Pink is considered a color of good health and life - we speak of people being "in the pink" or the "freshness" of a newborn babe.

Lastly, pink is associated with sexuality, and purity. That is, a girl who is a virgin in heart and body. Pink is symbolic of pure love, for example. It is also the color used for sexual advertisements and such, to indicate the purity of the girls."

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Pink is the color of universal love. Pink is a quiet color. Lovers of beauty favor pink. A pink carnation means "I will never forget you".

Pink is a combination of red and white. The quality of energy in pink is determined by how much red is present. White is the potential for fullness, while red helps you to achieve that potential. Pink combines these energies. Shades of deep pink, such as magenta, are effective in neutralizing disorder and violence. Some prisons use limited deep pink tones to diffuse aggressive behaviour.

Pink provides feelings of caring, tenderness, self-worth and love, acceptance.

Put some pink in your life when you want:

• calm feelings
• to neutralize disorder
• relaxation
• acceptance, contentment

After doing some soul searching I realized I was angry. I was angry at my ex. I was angry with my dear friend and I was even angry with myself. I was angry to the point that some of my joints were inflamed. I was burning hot angry. I blew up and cursed some folks out, pretty badly. I thought evil thoughts and went to bed angry for about 2 weeks. I now realize that my emotions and my entire being couldn't take the imbalance and therefore, my spirit was yearning for calm, order, contentment, love & acceptance, craving pink. But I also needed to relinquish my feelings, open up about my own shortcomings and let some things go. I needed to forgive.

I had hoped that as I prayed and purged during the last moments of 2009 that I would be renewed for the new year, but some issues trailed behind me. However, I'm grateful for the representation of the color pink, the calm it surely provides and my spiritual ear that listens to my soul's craving...