"Don't feel no pity for me... Cause I'm going through a couple things...
Life means change... That's the way it goes"
-- Jill Scott "Wanna Be Loved"
A relationship, for me, is a complement. It does not complete me. So I am not feeling incomplete by remaining single. I have dating prospects and I have quite a few bedroom prospects, however I am choosing to put me first, loving and nurturing my self.
I wanna be loved... like everybody else does...
I get mad sometimes... when I think of past and broken relationships but I shake that off.
I get sad sometimes... when I come home and I don't have anyone to share my work, church and daily stories with.
Put I press forward because I know bigger and better awaits me.
Yesterday I received subtle hints from two separate people. One was showing me baby pictures of a recent addition to his family and telling me that I needed to have a baby soon. The other told me that he showed my picture to a co-worker and he'd set me up if he knew someone. I need no pity!!! Singlehood was a choice for me. It was not an easy choice and sometimes I regret it... ok a little more than sometimes... but I have such a peace in knowing that all I am responsible for is me.
A friend/co-worker of mine even suggested that I look into e.Harmony. Dating sites are great for some and I totally support anyone willing to invest time and energy in finding "the one", but I am in no rush to delve into a new, fresh relationship. There are some transitions I am looking to make first so that I won't make any old mistakes.
I am examining the errors I have made in the past, building up my standards, building up my self and allowing freedom to reign in my life. I see myself, not in the full throw of a pity party, but in my future. Life means change and I know I have to shake off the limits of my past in order to move freely, to begin anew and enjoy all that life offers.
I am going through a couple of things... some days I am somber and some days I'm downright grumpy. Please bare with me however feel no pity for me. This here is my season to heal, to build up, to dance, to laugh, to love.