Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Happy Birthday....

Continuing with my Chocolate Brown Brother theme this week...

Today is one of my on-the-job honey's birthday
He's the one I actually dated years ago...
But we didn't work out and now he's married and I'm committed...
Yet we have/had some unsettled business
Never really made peace with each other
We've agreed to be friends again
Yet there's this tension between us
Tension that will just have to go unreleased
If you know what I mean...

In any case...

He's a big chocolate brown brother
Tall and handsome
I went 3 years not speaking to him
And every one of those years I missed him dearly
I tried to front and act like seeing him didn't bother me
I told my friends I was over him
But every time I saw him
And especially if he was talking with another woman
I'd get jealous
And turn around and hate him more and more

What I missed most
Were our intimate moments
Shared on the telephone
Or at a movie theater
Or sitting while reading my psychology texts books
He's a strong brother
With this big resounding voice
He's articulate
And eloquent
Even though he's tall and strong
He's gentle and kind
Today I wished him a Happy Birthday
Filled with love and joy and happiness
And for once, I truly meant it


Lovebabz said...

Good for you!

Rise above the noise!

Brothers are fine...thanks for making me more irritated...LOL!

Kiayaphd said...

Awwwww, that's so sweet. I've got one of those. . . took me years to get to the point of having a decent conversation or talk to him about our separate lives. It was a liberating day when I got there though.

Good for you!!

Off topic: I picked up a copy of the Gotham Writer's Workshop "Writing Fiction" workbook. I figure I'd do SOMETHING since I can't take the class right now. It looks good. I'll let you know what I think about it once I've had a chance to get through it.

Don said...

Msknowitall, seems like you are over here enjoying yourself. LOL.

Nothing wrong with that.

Ticia said...

GO head girly!!
I understand every word - I truly do!

The True Urban Queen aka Sharon said...

You are a wonderful person.

Once I decide to let go. I want to let go.
And once he wants to let go of me then I have been rejected and I never want to be just friends.

On a sidenote: I think 50 is so fine.

Eb the Celeb said...

I love me some 50! mmm hmmm!

Monique said...

Girl, I understand about finally coming to terms andbeing at peace about an ex. It takes time, years even. And it doesn't help when parts of you still miss those special times with ihm.

MsKnowitAll said...

Lovebabz... I just love Brown Men! Ummm ummm ummm - sorry I got you irritated. LOL

Kiaya... Yes it took some relaxing, relating and releasing but I'm free and able to be friendly. It feels great.
Please let me know how the workbook is. I'm going over to the site to price it.

Don... I just love y'all Brown Brothers and this week I'm feelin' extra frisky :)

Ticia... Thanks Girlie!

Queen... Ain't 50 fine! Whew!
I do walk away when I'm done with a man and this one never have the opportunity to hurt me again even if his wife leaves and he's on his knees crying (real tears) for me to give him another chance. I'm not friends with most exes but us not sealing the deal makes it easy.

Eb... 50 is one fine brother and I love him especially when he's cleaned up looking GQ.

Monique... It has taken years and sometimes I still miss those special times. Surprisingly he told me he misses them too. Ours is a complicated story... maybe one day I'll post.